I have two choices today for this post, look at all of the accomplishments I’ve achieved this past year, or bum you all out with all the struggles of the past year.
I’m usually a glass is both half empty and half full kinda girl. I’m also someone who finds no logic in hiding how one is feeling, good or bad. So I think today I will talk about both, 2020 has been a mixed bag of both the good and bad, the excellent and horrific. So let’s crash forward, shall we?
I always want the bad news first. It makes the good news that much sweeter, so that is what we shall do. But do stick around, hang in there through the bad so that you may enjoy the good.
Okay, the ugly. I think the biggest is the obvious, the pandemic, no one thought it would ever be possible and certainly no one thought it would still be going on. The entire world thrown into chaos. It has sent all of us reeling and some are still unsure how or if they will recover.
The lock downs had a strange effect on me, you see working from home my routine wasn’t affected when things started locking down. I never went anywhere to begin with, but to be told that I couldn’t now if I wanted to. Well, suddenly I felt very confined and trapped. The thoughts that those I loved were in danger of getting sick, the singular thought that my Hubby would be exposed and I would lose him was more than I could wrap my brain around.
I was terrified every day. Then another fear of mine came to fruition. April 6, 2020 at 4:20pm my Ninja girl took her final breath in my arms. It was the worst moment in my life and although I knew I would feel her absence deeply, I never thought it would be like this. She was the catalyst that sent me spiralling out of control.
There were moments that I myself wanted to die, I couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t function. It was a loss so deep so profound I never thought possible. I lost all joy in everything I did.
It took several months and the encouragement and love from my friends and family to get me to pick myself up and move forward. I’ve done my very best to do this, but I miss her every day, her loss has not become easier, it’s just easier to carry. This is the first Christmas in 19 years that she won’t be with us, and my heart is breaking all over again.
Have I sufficiently bummed you out? Yeah, me too. So I’m going to wipe my tears away and do my best to focus on the good that has happened this year.
Let’s start right back in January, I rapid re-released of my Mechanical Dragons books that had been touched up, fixing a few of the “mechanical errors” in the writing. Which lead to the fifth book that released in March, Mechanical Dragons: Reunion. The launch went well, I met some new authors I had not known previously and have since worked with some of them again.
I finished writing Tor, book three in the Realm Wardens Series which launched in November of this year. This book wrapped up the three book arc and has given the opening for the next set of three in that series. I ran another fun and successful event for this book and several others launching their newest books.
I also finished the first book in the newest trilogy, They Young Chronicles. Which is currently with the betas and set to go live in March 2021.
On a personal note, I have made a few strides in getting my kms in and filling up that bottom bar of my medals for virtual races. I’ve made a some new friends and have set a new two year plan in my career. (I’ll talk about those in the New Year!)
Lastly and I think the most important, I have been able to grow and strengthen my relationship with my sister. Without getting into any major personal details, it is a relationship I cherish and am so grateful for.
This year has been tough, for all of us. But I’m happy to say that I am leaving 2020 behind on a slightly better note. I hope that everyone can find their own positive note to finish this dumpster fire, crap-tastic year on.
I wish everyone a very Merry socially distanced Christmas, or whatever holiday or non-holiday you may observe this month. I wish everyone to be safe and healthy and will see you all in the New Year!
Follow your bliss!
Stay safe, Stay healthy!
I have a tendency to ramble when talking to friends. I figured why not share my ramblings here with you nice people!