Feeling my age today. Actually been feeling my age for quite some time now. It used to be because I couldn’t move and my joints hurt because I didn’t work out and take care of myself. Now, I can’t move because my muscles hurt from working out and not stretching properly. Go figure. I remember when I was 25 I could hike 13kms with forty pounds on my back and not even bat an eye. Not to mention the next day all I would have to contend with were a few blisters from poorly tied boots!
Now, I yawn and throw my back out! I thought I was being careful, not pushing myself too hard, doing all the right stability exercises to protect my knees. And you know what? I was! The problem is I completely ignored the rest of the muscles in my body. A couple sessions of my Turbo Jam and my whole right side seized right up!
Today is no better which means I have to go back to walking until my neck and shoulder start to feel better.
Yay, what fun that will be...
After speaking with a friend who is a guru at writing short stories I discovered that I may be going about my short story, Meredith, the wrong way. I was going to do a flashback, but turns out, not such a great idea, it would be much better to follow her through from the start. It hasn’t set me back much, but I did discover some inconsistencies between this short story and the corresponding books to follow it.
I had to do a little noodling with the facts, dates, and events. And I think I got it all sorted. The short story is set to debut in November during a book party, then its counterparts The Young Chronicles Trilogy is being released throughout 2022.
I have my editor date on May 3rd, I’m about 7k words into a 10-15k story. It shouldn’t be a problem, but knowing me and my procrastination skills, I will be writing right up to the last minute!
With May only a week away means that Christmas is fast approaching.
Before you start throwing rotten fruit and vegetables at me, let me explain!
Last Christmas I was still struggling with my depression. The idea of decorating, let alone creating was too much for me. The most that went up was the tree and Hubby was the one that took care of it. (He never helps with decorating so this is significant.)
Every year for as long as I can remember I create something for friends and family as gifts. Last year I couldn’t bring myself to do that either. Not one thing was created; I gave away no gifts to anyone. So this year I want to make sure I have gifts ready. I have several craft ideas and the supplies to put it all together.
All this takes time though. I have to meet shipping dates since some parcels will need to be delivered across Canada as well as in the States. This is why I am talking about Christmas in May! Okay, so put the garbage down now! I had a legitimate reason!
The last bit of exciting news for me is that I received my first vaccination. It will be a few months before I can get my booster, but in about a weeks’ time I will be 84% protected. What this means for me is finally after nearly 14 months of being locked down in my home, 14 months of not going into stores, 14 months of not seeing family, 14 months of no social gatherings of any kind, I will now be able to do some of these things. I will be able to walk through Walmart (wearing a mask still of course) but feel comfortable and not worry that I’m going to get sick.
This is huge for me. And it is definitely a step in the right direction with keeping my mental health strong.
I know that the vaccines are a hot topic for people, and I don’t want to start debates or fights. But what I will say is that it’s critical that we all get that shot in the arm. It’s not only to safe guard you from covid, but everyone around you. It’s been a long hard road, mentally and financially for so many people. Its frustrating that after all this time, after a year of shutdowns that we are still seeing shutdowns, that the government just can’t seem to get things right. I know everyone just wants to have barbeques, family gatherings, and parties with friends. But we aren’t there yet.
The more people refuse to get the vaccine the longer we will be faced with all of these insane shutdowns and restrictions. The longer face masks continue to be a debate about your personal freedoms being trod upon instead of seeing it as a health safe guard, is the longer we will be shutdown. More deaths will be seen, more super-bugs and variants created.
So, this is the last thing I will say and then I will sign off.
Stay Safe, Stay Healthy, Wear a Face Mask, Get Your Vaccination, Love Always, and Follow Your Bliss.
I realized that I hadn’t posted anything in over a month. I’m afraid I’m starting to feel like I’m stuck in Groundhog Day and no sign of finding my way out. That’s not really much of a joke, at least not an original one, because I’m certain I’ve made it before.
There have been a few things that’ve changed this last month and a half.
Let’s talk personally because I think this is where I struggled the most. As we all know 2020 payed a huge toll on me. I slipped into a very deep depression. One that I didn’t even realize I was in for several months. All I wanted to do was sleep, I didn’t want to do anything else, had no desire to write, craft, workout, play any of my games. I was always on the edge of tears with nothing bringing me any joy. I woke up sad, I went to bed sad, and the hours in between I wanted to die.
It took several months for me to stop trying to convince myself I wasn’t depressed and actually saw it for what it was. I was depressed and if I didn’t try to make some changes I may never have found my way out of it. I’ve been working really hard to find my way back, find my center again, laugh more and cry less.
The meditating was the start of that, it helped to center me and calm my mind. I started sleeping better at night and was no longer dragging through the day. I have been coming to terms with my loss of Ninja, April 6th was the one year anniversary and it was a hard day. I let myself be in the moment, let myself feel the loss without getting lost in it. I believe if it wasn’t for the meditating, I wouldn’t have been able to do that.
But I want to say this so that it’s understood, everyone experiences depression differently. Just because meditating helped bring me through it, doesn’t mean it is the do all end all of curing depression. It’s important everyone not only figures out what works best for them, but they are able to recognize when they need help and to ask for it. Some may need therapy, some medication, there are many ways for people to help center themselves.
This was how I did it.
The last few weeks I’ve been back to a workout schedule. Very exciting. My knees aren’t as happy with me, but I’m getting my body in motion and that helps with centering my mind as well. I’ve been able to complete a couple of my virtual races which is exciting since they were fairly long distances. I finished my conqueror’s challenge of Cabot Trail, which was 288kms and Lake Erie, which was 388km. Both took me several months to complete.
There were huge gaps in my progress logging, but with the last few weeks I was able to close the gap and get them done.
Now professionally, I had written a few thousand words in the last month. It is both good and bad, good because I have finally reached a place where I wanted to write again. Bad, because I have a lot of words to write to meet any of my goals.
Which brings me to the newest of writing news. When I decided that this year was going to be a gap year I had cancelled all my beta and editing dates. I figured I would just write straight through and worry about everything else closer to the end of the year.
Well, turns out I’m not so good without direction. Not having any deadlines means that I have no accountability. This translates to me never getting anything done. How I do I fix this? Well, I have set up a schedule with set beta and editing dates. I still won’t be publishing until March 2022, but I will be producing so there is no pressure to get the book out on time. Because of my not writing the last four months, I’m not going to say wasting my time, because it wasn’t a waste of time. I was doing a great deal of self-care.
Anywho, because I’m only now getting back into the swing of writing, I am scheduled to write two books to completion and about 90% of a third book. I will also be completing a short story that will be in the same world as the trilogy I’m working on this year. The Young Chronicles will be releasing March, July, and November of 2022. (To get sneak peaks and cover reveals for this trilogy, you will need to sign up to my newsletter.)
So there you have it, exciting I know, a tiny bit of Groundhog Day, but not too bad, right?
Oh, I thought I would mention this little Facebook group I have. I can hear the collective groans now, “not another Facebook group”! Unfortunately for me, it’s the nature of the beast when being a professional writer who wants to connect with her readers.
But I digress; this group Book Parties and Giveaways is geared toward just as it says. When you join the group you will get notifications of upcoming book parties. These parties will have four to five authors talking about their latest work and giving away free stuff! So give it a click, join up and wait for the notifications.
This group will only be active a few weeks before a party and the day of. Then it will go quiet again. Book parties will be three/four times a year. One is coming up July, 2021! So go on and join!
That's it for me!
Stay Safe, Stay Healthy, Love Always, and Follow Your Bliss!
I have a tendency to ramble when talking to friends. I figured why not share my ramblings here with you nice people!