Drawing a Blank

I’ve been racking my brain to figure out what I should write about this month. I’ve probably written about three hundred words already and just deleted them all. I feel like that kid in seventh grade who has been handed an empty journal in class and told to write about my day, week, weekend, vacation, anything.

Sitting there staring at the blank page pen poised to start scribbling down something exciting. But nothing comes, she blinks at the page and it just sits there, mocking her. She’s done nothing all weekend, been on no vacations.

That’s how I feel right now, staring at the blank screen, that tiny curser blinking at me as I sit and blink back. It’s mocking me and I know it, daring me to write down some dribble about the birds that keep trying to build nests on my balcony.

I play music to get inspiration, watch the neighbours across the way, take a shower hoping as the hot water beat down on me it would steam an idea out of my head. But I only come away with wrinkled fingers and toes and a water bill that’s through the roof. I stare at my wall of friends faces that sit behind my desk smiling down at me.

My mentor and dear friend, that encouraging smile that got me through rough times in my youth. It’s been almost ten years now since I’ve spoken to her. Taken too soon, miss her dearly. Hubby’s face, laughing, smiling, being goofy wearing a Dopey hat. Knows all the buttons to push, but knows how to make me feel so very loved.

My bestie in glow in the dark Halloween glasses, getting ready to run the Army run with me, doing her best to cheer me up on a dark day with her Prestel kitty face. My cousin, with her joyous laugh at her first race. My kitty content and happy in her bed.
I’m missing faces off my wall, but it won’t be long before they are added. My sisters, my wonderful friends, Utah and Kansas.

I’m surrounded by things and people that make me happy, shoot I even have a virtual hug sitting just off my monitor for those rough days. But still that blank page that curser blinking away and nothing comes to mind to write about.  

But alas I’ve drawn a complete blank on what to talk about today. I suppose I will have to leave you a mere Happy Easter Weekend my friends! Stay safe, have fun, and enjoy each other.